Long road ahead...

It's been about a month and a half since I last blogged. I was spending every spare second with my husband, who is now gone. That sounds ominous. He's not gone for good, just until the middle of September. AIT for the Army. 10 long weeks without him. I took him for granted. I didn't realize how much I needed him until he was gone. You would think I would know, since we went through this last summer, but it's amazing how much a year can make you forget. Forget the longing. Forget the pain. Forget the heartache. Now it's all back. I miss him terribly. I wake up in the morning and look beside me at the empty bed where he used to lay. I know he is waking up in Missouri, doing the same. Sometimes, it hurts to breathe. The loneliness is stifling. Family and friends try to make it better, and I am so grateful for them, but it's just not the same. My best friend is a thousand miles away...16 hours. We can't even talk on the phone right now. Thoughts of him consume me. Is he doing ok? I can only hope. I guess at this point, no news is good news. I just thank God everyday for him and that this isn't a deployment. My heart goes out to those whose spouses are serving overseas. God bless each and every one of them. I love you Charles.